11 Days Sober.
Many have no idea why I drank as much as I did. And honestly- many had no idea I drank as much as I did. Not even my own family. It doesn’t take much to do this stuff quietly.
But I struggle with #hypochondria - so much so that it’s my constant thought, all day every day. Imagine living in a mind that constantly believes you are terminally ill- or you have a serious issue. It’s scary- it’s overwhelming- and it’s a fight every single day.
So, you drink to calm your nerves- calm your brain- calm your fears. It gives you a carefree moment NOT to be stressing out over a pain- a moment of dizziness- a fear of passing out- and more.
I thought this was okay. I thought this was my way to cope. Until one beer didn’t suffice anymore. Two didnt. Three didn’t. It was taking so much alcohol to numb the pain and fear- I was sick from it. Every single day.
I drank to calm my world. But in turn, drinking made me sicker than I would have been had I tried to get help sober. 🙏🏻
So, now- I am learning to rewire my brain. I’m trying to learn how to think rationally and realistically. Im trying to sit down and say “okay- we are dizzy. We aren’t sick. We don’t have low blood sugar. We don’t have something wrong with our brain. We may just have allergies or need to drink water. But either way. We are okay.”
It takes a lot of breathing, a lot of talking yourself through it, leaning on others, and not searching Google- one of my greatest struggles!
But 11 days of fighting #hypochondria the best way I know how. Prayer. Talking to someone. Reading. And lots of grace and love.
I thank you for being a part of this #healing and #mentalhealth journey I am on. #Healthanxiety is real. And being on a #sobriety journey is necessary for a healthy life.
So when you look at someone that struggles with some sort of addiction, I hope you’ll see a human being trying to quiet some sort of demon… we all do it.. we all try to hush the voices of our pain and trauma and hurt…. Some through food, some through exercise, some through alcohol, some through drugs… finding those healthier coping mechanisms is the goal. Healing is the goal. But please have empathy on those that are just lost ❤️
But I struggle with #hypochondria - so much so that it’s my constant thought, all day every day. Imagine living in a mind that constantly believes you are terminally ill- or you have a serious issue. It’s scary- it’s overwhelming- and it’s a fight every single day.
So, you drink to calm your nerves- calm your brain- calm your fears. It gives you a carefree moment NOT to be stressing out over a pain- a moment of dizziness- a fear of passing out- and more.
I thought this was okay. I thought this was my way to cope. Until one beer didn’t suffice anymore. Two didnt. Three didn’t. It was taking so much alcohol to numb the pain and fear- I was sick from it. Every single day.
I drank to calm my world. But in turn, drinking made me sicker than I would have been had I tried to get help sober. 🙏🏻
So, now- I am learning to rewire my brain. I’m trying to learn how to think rationally and realistically. Im trying to sit down and say “okay- we are dizzy. We aren’t sick. We don’t have low blood sugar. We don’t have something wrong with our brain. We may just have allergies or need to drink water. But either way. We are okay.”
It takes a lot of breathing, a lot of talking yourself through it, leaning on others, and not searching Google- one of my greatest struggles!
But 11 days of fighting #hypochondria the best way I know how. Prayer. Talking to someone. Reading. And lots of grace and love.
I thank you for being a part of this #healing and #mentalhealth journey I am on. #Healthanxiety is real. And being on a #sobriety journey is necessary for a healthy life.
So when you look at someone that struggles with some sort of addiction, I hope you’ll see a human being trying to quiet some sort of demon… we all do it.. we all try to hush the voices of our pain and trauma and hurt…. Some through food, some through exercise, some through alcohol, some through drugs… finding those healthier coping mechanisms is the goal. Healing is the goal. But please have empathy on those that are just lost ❤️
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