One Week Sober [July 31, 2021]

 I thought I would go back through my Instagram posts (where I've been consistently posting about this sobriety journey) and share some posts with all of you that may be following this blog.

This is from July 31, 2021- one week sober.

*this is my own personal story- this is not to make anyone else feel my emotions or feelings. I have an addictive personality- and there are some that can drink one glass of wine and be done. I am not one of those humans*

I was on the phone with a sweet lady Tuesday, pouring my soul out to her, and I said “I don’t know how I got here.”

So we started talking about my drinking… and where I began… and by the end of the conversation, I had realized I wired my brain to feel like I *needed* a glass of wine to unwind. Which, a glass at 8:00pm before bed is one thing. I started using it as a coping mechanism at night-

But then- I couldn’t figure out how to unwind or calm down at 10:00am. I spent so much time using alcohol as a coping mechanism at night, I couldn’t find a healthy coping mechanism in the morning.

As I said- I have an addictive personality. Addicted to feelings and situations. So, when a glass of wine settled me down at night, I began using it to settle me down through the day.

So, this journey is now about rewiring and training my mind to cope healthy all of the time. I don’t have the headspace to say “just one drink tonight.” ❤️ and it’s necessary for me to speak those words and remember it. 🙏🏻

I took a hot bath today.
I read.

I’m on a new journey.. and today has been a little tougher than yesterday, but one day at a time 🙏🏻 #sobriety #sober #healthycopingskills #oneweeksober